Officially Pregnant

Our infertility, miscarriage, IVF, and pregnancy journey x 2 (still waiting on pregnancy #2)

Meltdown over…

on October 1, 2015

For now at least. I got the call while I was at work and I took a minute to finish what I was doing through the tears, cancelled a meeting at 3:30, informed my supervisor of what happened, and left. 

Oddly, I am ok. I’m not super weepy. I’m more pissed. I’m $12,000 in debt this round and not a baby or a frozen embryo out of the 7 remaining left to show for it. I originally said this would be the end of the road. Financially we are in debt much, much more than that due to student loans and we knew we couldn’t afford to keep trying. But now…now I don’t want to give up. Evan deserves a sibling. What I keep coming back to is the clinic. I feel like it’s time for a switch. They are far from our house and since our miscarriage in July I have felt like the attention and communication has been lacking big time. No one seemed to know our history, the different doctors have different opinions but yet you see all of them, we have yet to have anything freeze, and I almost feel like we were pushed into a shitty transfer rather than cancelling it. So is it time to change? I don’t know. I’m doing research for now…


2 responses to “Meltdown over…

  1. Take some time to digest it all. The right answer will come to you. Big hugs.

  2. valleyally says:

    I am very sorry you have to go through this. Take care of your self for now. The answers will come.

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